AND TIME GOES BY…
Well, look how long its been since my last post. Feels like a million years to me.
I read over what I had written so far. I guess we keep growing up, all of our lives, because my writings were immature and childish at times. At least I thought they were.
I couldn’t read some of it. Too hurtful.
I still haven’t recovered from Mom’s passing. But, its getting a little better. I used to cry every single night, after I got in bed.
That has stopped now. I didn’t think it ever would. But I have to make myself think of other things, so I won’t cry.
Yes, I knew the grief and pain would ease, eventually.
But there is still tremendous sorrow. A person never gets over losing a loved one. Especially a parent. And some people suffer more then others. Are we just more “sensitive”?
And I think I am still in denial. Because when I do think about Mom being “gone”, I get almost hysterical. Like being gripped by terror for a moment.
Do you think there is a Heaven? Does God really, truly exist?
If you believe He does, why do you believe?
Because you were “taught” as a small child?
You know when you get those emails…..the ones that are hoax’s? Urban legends. There are websites verifying and/or proving the emails to be hoax’s. Most people believe these kinds of emails to be true and they forward them on to everyone in their address book! But it turns out to be not true!
How do we know that God is not a hoax? Really!
We are just supposed to believe, without asking questions.
We are not to question God’s judgement either……..the way things happen and stuff.
But we’re human. We’re born to question all things.
Not the existance of God though.
I was raised up Catholic. A good God fearing little girl……….
But how do I KNOW He is there?
Can someone elaborate for me? Can someone point the way?